[ hmm. ]

I think you can still find it, if you want. Depends on what you want to latch on to. If ‘no one else dying’ isn’t possible, maybe figuring out why and stopping it’d work better.

[ there’s that temptation to have a cigarette again. nothing’s stopping him, but he doesn’t go to pull one out and light it. ]

I’m not going to promise something I can’t keep, but if it does happen, I’m not going to just roll over and let myself be killed.