[ Now Yuri's the one feeling a bit guilty. Their first mission, and she was the one who had to be their responsible guide through it all. There were things out of her control and the feeling of being dead weight had never left her. ]
[ Yuri is quiet after that. Perhaps that verbal answer was satisfying enough for her. Or perhaps she heard a stray thought due to the nanites.
There's an apple on Yuri's tray and looking at it makes her pensive. There is slight shock, but if she thinks about it, there shouldn't have been any surprise that things ended up that way.
And she finally speaks up. ]
Thank you. It still means a lot to me. Just the sentiment of it, even if it couldn't be approved for whatever reason... I was happy. I'm still happy about it. A place to go back to... I wanted one. I really did.
[ Yuri never made it a secret that she wanted to live, despite how difficult everything was. There's a brief passing melancholy. ]
That was the last thing I remembered—walking towards the abnormality with you when it stopped moving and then it was close to attacking me. I didn't die, but I suppose... I was very close to the moment before I woke up here somehow.
[ Her gaze steadies when she looks at Gregor. ]
I wasn't fast enough. No one was ordered to protect me, so I should have taken better care of myself.
We could be dragged back. You couldn't. I should've... gone alone.
[accompanying him killed her. going into those depths, following the pull he felt, is what killed her. so what if that moment somehow isn't his fault-- isn't the rest of it?]
...I don't know how they managed bringing you here. Guess they're serious about messing with time.
[a thread of relief winds through the vibes, there. she is alive.]
But if you can stay... then stay. Not just to live, either. We both know how the City is to folks like us.
[even if she managed to return alive, to have some guarantee she wouldn't be walking right back into her inevitable death, they know what fallen feathers can expect.]
I asked the senior member about that, and they said that I could continue working here past the first tour. I hope that you can enjoy your time here as much as you can, Gregor, even if we have to work.
[ It'll be like 4.5, but better! ]
People here are nice. I hope that it'll be this way for a long time. To be in an environment where we can thrive...
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[ She thought Gregor would have talked about it like a regular mission, but why is there guilt? She doesn't understand. ]
Gregor, you... really don't want to talk about it that much?
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[especially when it comes to the details.]
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[ Now Yuri's the one feeling a bit guilty. Their first mission, and she was the one who had to be their responsible guide through it all. There were things out of her control and the feeling of being dead weight had never left her. ]
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[they could have tried. at the very least-
'the least we could've done was get her out alive, and we didn't even-']
You didn't do anything wrong.
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There's an apple on Yuri's tray and looking at it makes her pensive. There is slight shock, but if she thinks about it, there shouldn't have been any surprise that things ended up that way.
And she finally speaks up. ]
Thank you. It still means a lot to me. Just the sentiment of it, even if it couldn't be approved for whatever reason... I was happy. I'm still happy about it. A place to go back to... I wanted one. I really did.
[ Her voice softens even more. ]
Did the apple Abnormality kill me?
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[shock ripples through the emotional feedback, guilt once again bleeding through. did he think it too loudly-? or can she just guess?
...either way, his reaction must give the answer away to begin with, and he closes his eyes for a moment.]
...you went up to it with me when it stopped moving. And when it attacked-
We weren't fast enough.
['i wasn't fast enough.' he only managed to save himself.]
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That was the last thing I remembered—walking towards the abnormality with you when it stopped moving and then it was close to attacking me. I didn't die, but I suppose... I was very close to the moment before I woke up here somehow.
[ Her gaze steadies when she looks at Gregor. ]
I wasn't fast enough. No one was ordered to protect me, so I should have taken better care of myself.
... It's not your fault.
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[accompanying him killed her. going into those depths, following the pull he felt, is what killed her. so what if that moment somehow isn't his fault-- isn't the rest of it?]
Yuri-- you can't go back.
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[ She tries her hardest to smile. ]
I'm alive, after all. I want to stay that way.
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[a thread of relief winds through the vibes, there. she is alive.]
But if you can stay... then stay. Not just to live, either. We both know how the City is to folks like us.
[even if she managed to return alive, to have some guarantee she wouldn't be walking right back into her inevitable death, they know what fallen feathers can expect.]
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[ It'll be like 4.5, but better! ]
People here are nice. I hope that it'll be this way for a long time. To be in an environment where we can thrive...