[ projmoon really did traumatise gregor and then give an ego based on watching this nice girl die.
... no wonder she'd reacted like that. finding out something was going to kill you, seeing your own death through someone else's eyes and then seeing that person with a representation of your death in a situation like the one they'd all just seen?
[ Yuri gets it. She wouldn't know what to say to something like that either. That's why she snuggles closer to Shu with the blanket. ]
Truthfully, I... didn't know Gregor or Rodya any longer than several days before coming here, but what they did for me... was so important. They were under a separate company and I was contracted by them. That's how we met. In the days of being an outcast because of something I couldn't help... that no matter what I did, the stigma would outweigh anything I do... Gregor understood me so deeply from how we experienced similar things. Rodya... invited me to join the company. It probably done in jest and there would be many complications, but...
[ This is why being invited is important to her. ]
... I could finally feel that I could belong somewhere.
[ he'll untangle a hand to tug the blanket up over her head, just so he can prop his chin there without touching her directly. ]
... I think if anyone could swing something like that, it'd be Rodya. [ purely just be being herself, it feels like. ]
I saw some of Gregor's background that week, some of the shit he went through before ending up where he was. [ him understanding... makes sense. ]
Seems like they've made it pretty clear you still belong with them, if that's what you want. I'm pretty sure that can be a feeling, a friendship, something like that, rather than you having to put yourself in danger like that for it.
... [ so bad because of gregor and what was happening to him and what happened to him in the past, and a bad reminder of what had happened to her in a way. ]
Bad memories all around then. That won't have made it any easier.
It wasn't great for anyone. We also experienced a small portion of it before we came here. It was like the week when we were all looking at each other's memories.
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... no wonder she'd reacted like that. finding out something was going to kill you, seeing your own death through someone else's eyes and then seeing that person with a representation of your death in a situation like the one they'd all just seen?
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[ what do you even say to that? "sorry"? ]
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Truthfully, I... didn't know Gregor or Rodya any longer than several days before coming here, but what they did for me... was so important. They were under a separate company and I was contracted by them. That's how we met. In the days of being an outcast because of something I couldn't help... that no matter what I did, the stigma would outweigh anything I do... Gregor understood me so deeply from how we experienced similar things. Rodya... invited me to join the company. It probably done in jest and there would be many complications, but...
[ This is why being invited is important to her. ]
... I could finally feel that I could belong somewhere.
[ But then she died. ]
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... I think if anyone could swing something like that, it'd be Rodya. [ purely just be being herself, it feels like. ]
I saw some of Gregor's background that week, some of the shit he went through before ending up where he was. [ him understanding... makes sense. ]
Seems like they've made it pretty clear you still belong with them, if that's what you want. I'm pretty sure that can be a feeling, a friendship, something like that, rather than you having to put yourself in danger like that for it.
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[ Yuri quietly sighs. ]
... It was terrible. The background of the simulation room was awful.
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...
[ he bumps his chin on the top of her head. ]
You recognised it?
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[ She frowns, but lightens up when she feels the bump on her head. ]
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Right. [ if it’s a war, then— ] And that’s the sort of thing that can lead to a collapse and someone being without a Wing, when it breaks?
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More or less, yes.
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... [ so bad because of gregor and what was happening to him and what happened to him in the past, and a bad reminder of what had happened to her in a way. ]
Bad memories all around then. That won't have made it any easier.
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[ She quietly sighs. ]
It wasn't great for anyone. We also experienced a small portion of it before we came here. It was like the week when we were all looking at each other's memories.
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[ Yuri turns a little to bury her face into the blanket, but it's basically where his chest is so. There. ]
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