For me, it was if L Corp never went under. It was the company that you experienced on Monday. Because it went under, I went through a lot of hardships. Even though the job was had many dangerous aspects, everything just... crumbled after its collapse. I left my friend and coworkers behind, lost my eye, and was branded as an outcast after that made it hard for me to live a decent life.
I... I can't tell right now. I keep thinking that version is real for some reason, but I also know that it isn't. It's... rough.
[ She opens her eye and quietly breathes out. ]
... I met my friend that I left behind. She was there. When the memory started to collapse, she attacked and blamed me for leaving her behind. I... wanted to live, so badly. She did too, but I left her... like that. And... I killed her.
there's a moment for that to sink in, before he shifts himself up and along the cot a little, so that he's sat close enough that yuri can lean on him if she wants to. ]
You said you know it's not real, but does it help if someone else tells you that too? That it's not real, and your corp is still gone.
[ Yuri turns a little towards Shu so that she's now lying down on her healthy side, but she has a hand over her face. She's probably crying a little. ]
... Would you? It feels pathetic for me to even ask...
It’s not real. You’re not in the City, and your corp is gone.
[ he adjusts his weight so he’s leaning on one arm, freeing up his other hand so he can take one of her hands, hopefully not as injured as the rest of her, and gives it a squeeze. it’s nicer than a pinch to ground someone in reality. ]
[ Yuri sniffles as he takes her hand. Anyone can say those words. It's easy. However, there's something about this moment where Yuri feels overwhelmed with the feeling of gratitude. The little squeeze to her hand brings her to reality. None of what she saw was real.
She returns the little squeeze in their hands and shakily breathes out. ]
[ Yuri finds more tears welling up in her eye when he says that. To feel safe... she almost forgot how that's like. Here she is in the bloody clothes that she never got to change out of and still smells a bit like pine, but Shu still hugs her regardless.
[ there’s not a whole lot more he can say to that. he’s said what he needs to. so he’ll just let her cry it out for a bit until she’s got all of that out of her system.
the ship isn’t exactly safety, especially not just before the weekend. but she’s not on that mission anymore, so there’s that. that’s one victory. ]
at some point he’s going to have started absently running a hand over the back of her head, more absentmindedly than anything. but it was soothing to have someone nearby, just letting you know they were still present, still there. that’s what he’d always found. ]
…
[ hm. ]
The irony of when and where you’re saying this isn’t lost on me. But— that’s good.
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An idealised version, but it was awful?
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For me, it was if L Corp never went under. It was the company that you experienced on Monday. Because it went under, I went through a lot of hardships. Even though the job was had many dangerous aspects, everything just... crumbled after its collapse. I left my friend and coworkers behind, lost my eye, and was branded as an outcast after that made it hard for me to live a decent life.
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Even though it's in the City? That's still something you'd want, or was it just something that wherever you were thought you wanted?
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[ She closes her eye. ]
I... I can't tell right now. I keep thinking that version is real for some reason, but I also know that it isn't. It's... rough.
[ She opens her eye and quietly breathes out. ]
... I met my friend that I left behind. She was there. When the memory started to collapse, she attacked and blamed me for leaving her behind. I... wanted to live, so badly. She did too, but I left her... like that. And... I killed her.
[ All that blood! It's Alex's. (yay) ]
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there's a moment for that to sink in, before he shifts himself up and along the cot a little, so that he's sat close enough that yuri can lean on him if she wants to. ]
You said you know it's not real, but does it help if someone else tells you that too? That it's not real, and your corp is still gone.
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... Would you? It feels pathetic for me to even ask...
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It’s not real. You’re not in the City, and your corp is gone.
[ he adjusts his weight so he’s leaning on one arm, freeing up his other hand so he can take one of her hands, hopefully not as injured as the rest of her, and gives it a squeeze. it’s nicer than a pinch to ground someone in reality. ]
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She returns the little squeeze in their hands and shakily breathes out. ]
... Thank you.
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how much is she going to freak out of he does flop down next to her and shift this handholding into a hug. ]
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She tries to scoot closer. ]
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You’re safe. It’s okay.
[ past midnight he can’t make any promises, but right now he can claim that confidently. ]
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She lets the tears flow and closes her eye. ]
Thank you...
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the ship isn’t exactly safety, especially not just before the weekend. but she’s not on that mission anymore, so there’s that. that’s one victory. ]
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Yuri eventually stops crying. The thoughts latch onto her, but she feels that she can deal with it better with Shu here. ]
... I don't think I've ever felt safe like this in a very long time.
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at some point he’s going to have started absently running a hand over the back of her head, more absentmindedly than anything. but it was soothing to have someone nearby, just letting you know they were still present, still there. that’s what he’d always found. ]
…
[ hm. ]
The irony of when and where you’re saying this isn’t lost on me. But— that’s good.
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I'll say that Yuri has the bow out of her hair just for this. ]
... I forgot the time.
[ She slightly huffs. ]
But it's true and it... feels nice.
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Your message said you had a mission on Wednesday — you’ve been gone since then? [ our handwaves. ]
Mm. Good, then. We’re fine for a while anyway.
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... You don't mind staying like this?
[ He's not going to get jumpscared by someone suddenly coming into the medbay, right?? ]
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I don’t mind.
[ they’ll either just get on with what they need or do, or leave. which is fine by him. ] You’re not bothered?
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I... I want to stay like this a little longer.
[ She's burying her face above Shu's collarbones. Don't perceive her. ]
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oh, there she goes. ]
Alright, I'm not going anywhere.
[ he just bumps his chin on the top of her head again. cosy? ]
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We can end the thread here unless you want another mem from Yuri... wouldn't it be funny if he witnessed her death right after this ]
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puts a pause on this in case one of us is dead before i say mem or not hee hee hoo hoo ]