[ Blade's lips crack into a maddened grin. A sudden rush of thoughts, and questions. His own voice, purposefully, perhaps, or inadvertently as her questions open up a dam, but with no satisfying response in sight.
"Who is there to trust?"
"When will it all end?"
"When did it first start?"
"And at the end, will there be anything done about it?" ]
...what do I know?
Simply that it is clear from the beginning we've been kidnapped to be some kind of organization's toys. The signs are there, aren't they?
That we're a part of some kind of experiment. We were brought here against our will, with forged signatures that look like our own, for some kind of so-called 'mission' or 'voyage'.
On the fine print, everything looks as they should. But in the end, nothing is as it should be.
Yet, what is there to be done about it? Will we live? Will we die? Will we lose our minds, be turned into something else? Made to relive some maddened scenario over and over again until we've forgotten what we were?
[ god. if hien was here, he'd tell blade to shut up and stop reading r/conspiracy
So Yuri will just seem a little panicked from all the questions via thoughtshare and then everything Blade says, because it's a lot. Sure, she wants to go against it, but she has no evidence and her pessimism makes it hard to refute anything.
But still, for the sake of some people on the ship... ]
... We can't say that until something like that is proven.
[ She gathered every ounce of courage for this, to tell Blade, to overcome her pessimism for once. ]
[ That'd be hilarious. Sadly Yuri asked this question to someone who is actually very certifiably insane.
Ah yes, that resolve...he has seen something like that before. He doesn't remember what it's like to have that determination anymore. That drive. Two thoughts now. "But is it your truth? Or...is it desperation?" ]
What do you mean? Why not?
Do you really think that nothing is amiss? We didn't ask for our bodies to be messed with.
[ He laughs, harsh, but deep, and true. ]
Remember that. We can be made to sleep and wake on a dime, against our will. Don't forget that. No matter what happens, don't forget...or you will wish you hadn't.
[ Yuri knows full well that it's part desperation. It's not the truth of anything. People die on the regular. Most don't get closure. Closure is a luxury. They may never know what truly happened there and for what motive. All they can do is guess. ]
Inadvertent thoughts, which make it clear that, well, whatever reason he is saying it is...some reason, for sure.
People wouldn't be so pleased if they heard word from her that he was; they could very well come after him and try to force him into death's sweet embrace. Considering that, Blade decides not to clarify his intentions. ]
...Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you, Yuri?
We don't know if we'll remain who we are by the end.
Time won't wait...but when the time comes, will your resolve remain as strong as it is now? Even if you see only despair? Even if we're nothing but trapped and without control in our own situation?
[ Probably not. Her resolve probably won't be as strong. This is already taking up so much of her courage and whatnot that she doesn't feel like she can do it again. ]
Even so, even without the blinding optimism... I've always strived to live. I am rarely in control of the situations I'm in, but that won't change, no matter what happens. I've done terrible things to do that and sometimes I wonder if it's so wrong for me to live, but as long as I'm alive, I'll eventually get through things. I can't do that when I'm dead.
[ Blade says simply, after a moment of silence; this was probably supposed to at least be a regular conversation but it is clear that is impossible with him at times. ]
[ He flashes her a little smirk, as if amused about something. ]
...I won't be heading to bed anytime soon.
But, you should. I see it has taken its toll on you and some of the others.
[ She can get the feeling that Blade is not counting himself among the rest, despite his crazed responses just a few moments before. But, he will turn on the heel of his foot, and make his departure. ]
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"Who is there to trust?"
"When will it all end?"
"When did it first start?"
"And at the end, will there be anything done about it?" ]
...what do I know?
Simply that it is clear from the beginning we've been kidnapped to be some kind of organization's toys. The signs are there, aren't they?
That we're a part of some kind of experiment. We were brought here against our will, with forged signatures that look like our own, for some kind of so-called 'mission' or 'voyage'.
On the fine print, everything looks as they should. But in the end, nothing is as it should be.
Yet, what is there to be done about it? Will we live? Will we die? Will we lose our minds, be turned into something else? Made to relive some maddened scenario over and over again until we've forgotten what we were?
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So Yuri will just seem a little panicked from all the questions via thoughtshare and then everything Blade says, because it's a lot. Sure, she wants to go against it, but she has no evidence and her pessimism makes it hard to refute anything.
But still, for the sake of some people on the ship... ]
... We can't say that until something like that is proven.
[ She gathered every ounce of courage for this, to tell Blade, to overcome her pessimism for once. ]
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Ah yes, that resolve...he has seen something like that before. He doesn't remember what it's like to have that determination anymore. That drive. Two thoughts now. "But is it your truth? Or...is it desperation?" ]
What do you mean? Why not?
Do you really think that nothing is amiss? We didn't ask for our bodies to be messed with.
[ He laughs, harsh, but deep, and true. ]
Remember that. We can be made to sleep and wake on a dime, against our will. Don't forget that. No matter what happens, don't forget...or you will wish you hadn't.
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Are you threatening me?
[ what are you gonna do, stab me? ]
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[ "Would you try to strike me down?"
Inadvertent thoughts, which make it clear that, well, whatever reason he is saying it is...some reason, for sure.
People wouldn't be so pleased if they heard word from her that he was; they could very well come after him and try to force him into death's sweet embrace. Considering that, Blade decides not to clarify his intentions. ]
...Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you, Yuri?
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... Doesn't everyone? We don't know what will happen. Nothing is secure. But time won't wait for us whether we're afraid or not anyway.
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That's right, nothing is certain.
We don't know if we'll remain who we are by the end.
Time won't wait...but when the time comes, will your resolve remain as strong as it is now? Even if you see only despair? Even if we're nothing but trapped and without control in our own situation?
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Even so, even without the blinding optimism... I've always strived to live. I am rarely in control of the situations I'm in, but that won't change, no matter what happens. I've done terrible things to do that and sometimes I wonder if it's so wrong for me to live, but as long as I'm alive, I'll eventually get through things. I can't do that when I'm dead.
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That could be all it takes, in the end.
[ Blade says simply, after a moment of silence; this was probably supposed to at least be a regular conversation but it is clear that is impossible with him at times. ]
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[ She knows that, Blade! Blade might pick up some thoughts about "human augments" though. ]
You should get some sleep, Blade. It's been a tiring night for most of us.
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...I won't be heading to bed anytime soon.
But, you should. I see it has taken its toll on you and some of the others.
[ She can get the feeling that Blade is not counting himself among the rest, despite his crazed responses just a few moments before. But, he will turn on the heel of his foot, and make his departure. ]
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