[ Yuri tilts her head while turning to look at Blade. ]
Cruelty... is it?
[ Is it sparing her or that he just doesn't want to tell her? Either way, Yuri won't persist as she reaches over to the coffee table to grab a bottle. ]
[ Blade doesn't get a cup. Yuri hands him the entire bottle. She has multiple bottles for a reason. As if to demonstrate, Yuri just drinks straight from the bottle. A quarter of it is gone in one go. ]
[ Blade tilts back the bottle again to gulp it down to half-empty; it's totally fine, there have been worse choices made. His tolerance is pretty up there as well. ]
It's one way to spend time, or make it go faster than before.
I wrote down so many things, but I still couldn't figure it out. It really looks like there are only one or two important clues to think about, after all. How the murder was done doesn't look like it matters too much.
[ She's a little gloomy again, but it's whatever. She drinks some more vodka straight from the bottle. ]
...Yet, the only way anyone can get further enough to solve anything in either of the cases is if someone paves the wave towards the answer.
Though, it doesn't feel enough. But, it is something we should remind ourselves of.
[ Blade does wish he had caught Rosamund swifter himself, which is why he brings it up in the first place. As for the other...he did have his suspicions. He gulps down some of his drink, before speaking again. ]
You believe you failed because you weren't able to go through in killing her.
[ Blade is so inspirational. Damn. Yuri looks at him for a while as she holds the vodka bottle. She contemplates the amount of liquor inside it, swishing it inside the bottle before looking at Blade again. ]
People don't really die when they die here. That's why if we can't bring the deceased back to our side so that they're more than memories, Rosamund will just be living like that, forever.
So I feared two things at that moment: Rosamund would hate me for not letting her kill herself and... sentencing her to a possible eternity in a place where she has no corporeal form wouldn't give her an ending. She would never get one.
I... ditched my friend and coworker so that I could live. For some reason, I couldn't do that here.
[ Yuri can thank herself for that one. In some ways he's definitely set in how he is, but...he's changed too, even if nobody will catch him admitting as much aloud.
Anyway, they can both still be miserably-adjacent about things, however. ]
...It was different. Though you striking her down would make it certain that she'd die and no longer be a threat, it was less immediate. There was at least more than three minutes to think about what you should do, if you should do it.
Then, there was the aspect of condemning someone to a possible eternity of suffering. A fate worse than death, knowingly. For most with a kind heart, even one that wanted desperately to survive...it would be an impossible choice.
[ He says, finally, though it is only his opinion. It would not erase the turmoil, but it can perhaps ease that inner confusion. Blade finishes off his drink after another gulp. ]
Three minutes was extremely long. For me, it was more that... I wanted Rosamund to end her own life if that's what she wanted to do. So I waited and waited...
[ Then she got knocked out by Nodd and Yuri can't blame him either. There's a wry smile on her face. ]
... I can't condemn one of the few people who have shown me the closest thing to unconditional support that I'll ever have.
[ Blade doesn't think he knows how that feels. With or without the memories of his past...or maybe, if he had them, he'd know for certain.
But, for Yuri, he can see it's starkly different. He had no idea that she cared so deeply for Rosamund. ]
So, it's your bond with her that has caused you this...distress.
[ Nothing he supposes he could've concluded correctly. Though, he's not bothered by it. He's used to falling short in understanding the bonds of others. ]
[ She says that quickly, because she thinks Blade would just tell her that the bond doesn't matter in the long run--that it only causes pain because that's what happens when you lose someone. ]
... It just means I'll learn how to handle it differently.
[ Diluc probably thought something like that. That he could handle her, despite the change in her condition.
Blade knows she has determination, resolve now; she has grown more powerful than ever. But he also recalls that bond killed Diluc, despite his own admirable steel resolve to live. ]
...If she ever turns on you, do not hesitate.
[ He rises back to his feet, looking at her, then nods with his head to indicate that he will be off, before going to do so. ]
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Cruelty... is it?
[ Is it sparing her or that he just doesn't want to tell her? Either way, Yuri won't persist as she reaches over to the coffee table to grab a bottle. ]
Would you like some vodka, Blade?
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[ Both. It's definitely both.
Though, if he's being honest with himself, he might need to space some of it all. Recollection of those words about Nero landed a bit closer. ]
...I would. I believe I've tried it once before, and found it adequate enough. Though, obviously not often. Is this what you normally try yourself?
[ Blade will wait for her to pour it. ]
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[ Blade doesn't get a cup. Yuri hands him the entire bottle. She has multiple bottles for a reason. As if to demonstrate, Yuri just drinks straight from the bottle. A quarter of it is gone in one go. ]
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[ Blade shouldn't be amazed she could drink that much in one go already. Hello? ]
...Your tolerance must have grown, or perhaps it was already that much.
[ Just not Yuri's height, but he begins to gulp down the drink. This feels familiar, because that is how he has spent one of the nights. Drinking. ]
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[ She's planning to just pass the fuck out in this rec room. She has comfy clothes and is already swaddled in a blanket. Yuri is so ready. ]
And it's not that big.
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[ Blade tilts back the bottle again to gulp it down to half-empty; it's totally fine, there have been worse choices made. His tolerance is pretty up there as well. ]
It's one way to spend time, or make it go faster than before.
[ To say little of other reasons. ]
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[ ... ]
And I couldn't even do the one thing I could do right.
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[ As for the other part, he is certain she is referring to how she attempted to help Rosamund.
...Maybe. He's not very good at deducing certain conclusions unless it has to do with battle, haha. ]
Figure it out? Assist with what happened towards the end of that trial?
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[ She's a little gloomy again, but it's whatever. She drinks some more vodka straight from the bottle. ]
I contemplated killing Rosamund.
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Though, it doesn't feel enough. But, it is something we should remind ourselves of.
[ Blade does wish he had caught Rosamund swifter himself, which is why he brings it up in the first place. As for the other...he did have his suspicions. He gulps down some of his drink, before speaking again. ]
You believe you failed because you weren't able to go through in killing her.
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People don't really die when they die here. That's why if we can't bring the deceased back to our side so that they're more than memories, Rosamund will just be living like that, forever.
So I feared two things at that moment: Rosamund would hate me for not letting her kill herself and... sentencing her to a possible eternity in a place where she has no corporeal form wouldn't give her an ending. She would never get one.
I... ditched my friend and coworker so that I could live. For some reason, I couldn't do that here.
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Anyway, they can both still be miserably-adjacent about things, however. ]
...It was different. Though you striking her down would make it certain that she'd die and no longer be a threat, it was less immediate. There was at least more than three minutes to think about what you should do, if you should do it.
Then, there was the aspect of condemning someone to a possible eternity of suffering. A fate worse than death, knowingly. For most with a kind heart, even one that wanted desperately to survive...it would be an impossible choice.
[ He says, finally, though it is only his opinion. It would not erase the turmoil, but it can perhaps ease that inner confusion. Blade finishes off his drink after another gulp. ]
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[ Then she got knocked out by Nodd and Yuri can't blame him either. There's a wry smile on her face. ]
... I can't condemn one of the few people who have shown me the closest thing to unconditional support that I'll ever have.
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But, for Yuri, he can see it's starkly different. He had no idea that she cared so deeply for Rosamund. ]
So, it's your bond with her that has caused you this...distress.
[ Nothing he supposes he could've concluded correctly. Though, he's not bothered by it. He's used to falling short in understanding the bonds of others. ]
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[ She says that quickly, because she thinks Blade would just tell her that the bond doesn't matter in the long run--that it only causes pain because that's what happens when you lose someone. ]
... It just means I'll learn how to handle it differently.
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[ Due to her affliction, he means. Blade does, in fact, think holding the bond between them can be a liability, for that very reason. ]
You say that you'll learn how to handle it differently...
But, can you?
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[ She says without hesitation. ]
I told her everything that I wanted to say. What she does after that is up to her.
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Blade knows she has determination, resolve now; she has grown more powerful than ever. But he also recalls that bond killed Diluc, despite his own admirable steel resolve to live. ]
...If she ever turns on you, do not hesitate.
[ He rises back to his feet, looking at her, then nods with his head to indicate that he will be off, before going to do so. ]
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Yuri watches Blade on his way out, but quiet. There are no more words to be said. ]