Isn't wishing supposed to have something to do with whether you believe in what you're wishing for? Sounds like that's something easy enough to believe in.
Only on believing them so they come true, if you believe in what the family movies tell you.
[ a dream is a wish your heart makes, yuri.
he listens and he lets her squeeze his arm before he dips his head to bump her shoulder, where he won't touch skin to skin. she can't see him smile from here, but he is. ]
That so?
[ imagine if that was all he said. they really don't have much to hold onto here, with everything the way it is. but this? it feels like something worth holding onto here. if they can get through it all. ]
[ Yuri wants to hold onto it for as long as she can. She wants to keep it with her forever. This feeling that she has now... it's worth it. She know that she won't regret this, no matter what happens.
Everything sucks around them, but right now, in this very moment, she's happy. ]
It feels so strange that I can finally... say something like that into the air.
You've never been able to? [ or wanted to? although if he really thinks about it, he's not been in a position like this in. well. a very long time. feeling comfortable enough with the idea of telling someone he likes them -- it doesn't matter if he thinks about what he does back home and how he could die and leave someone behind, when he knows how much that can break a person.
they both could, here. so... the opposite, wanting to grab the little things that make them happy. that's important here. ]
Having a relationship like this in The City with the nature of everything, especially in the Backstreets, is usually a laughable idea. People die all the time. You never know when they'll just leave or die. I definitely couldn't even think of having one in my situation either.
[ So the fact that she can do this now, it feels... refreshing. Relieving. She really likes that feeling and sometimes she feels that she can't get enough of it. ]
[ it's not necessarily too different to here, though but-- there's no stigma of being from a fallen wing. and it's nice that they've both made it this far, despite everything. ]
But now you're not going back to The City, so you're free to do whatever you want.
But... I want to be the best at doing something. To have a feeling that I could do something better than other people... I want to feel it at least once.
... Of course. Too much of anything would be bad, wouldn't it?
[ But she just wants things sometimes. Yuri looks up to see more shooting stars. Maybe sleeping here wouldn't be so bad. ]
I told Gregor and Rodya that I had feelings for you, because I promised. Just telling other people about it... makes me realize that it's a lot more serious than I thought. I also... hope you don't mind. It feels like a big deal, even though it shouldn't be.
Does this mean I'll be getting a shovel talk at some point?
[ the tag team that couldn't be, because teej committed crimes. ]
From what you've told me, ignoring the whole part where The City's not exactly a hotbed for feelings and emotions and all that, you've not had a lot to call yours. [ he shrugs. it doesn't bother him. talking about how you feel is tough for a lot of people -- that she was able and willing to tell gregor and rodion says a lot about her relationship with them, despite what she'll eventually tell him about them not knowing each other long. ]
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Is that your suggestion to just stop thinking, then?
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[ Like the trial. ]
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[ you are ignoring me. i see.
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It's good to have breaks, but humor me for a moment, Shu. Would you make a wish on a shooting star?
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... Right, that's a thing isn't it. Maybe? I've not really had a lot to wish for. What about you? Do you want to?
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[ looks at the trial. looks at execution. lmfao ]
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[ HAHA. HA. haaaaaaaaaa. ]
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[ Yuri laughs a little and smiles fondly at him. ]
... I never got to say it, and I don't know if this should be something so obvious, but... I like you, Shu.
[ The arm will get squeezed for a moment. ]
I like you a lot.
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[ a dream is a wish your heart makes, yuri.
he listens and he lets her squeeze his arm before he dips his head to bump her shoulder, where he won't touch skin to skin. she can't see him smile from here, but he is. ]
That so?
[ imagine if that was all he said. they really don't have much to hold onto here, with everything the way it is. but this? it feels like something worth holding onto here. if they can get through it all. ]
I like you too.
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Everything sucks around them, but right now, in this very moment, she's happy. ]
It feels so strange that I can finally... say something like that into the air.
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god. ]
You've never been able to? [ or wanted to? although if he really thinks about it, he's not been in a position like this in. well. a very long time. feeling comfortable enough with the idea of telling someone he likes them -- it doesn't matter if he thinks about what he does back home and how he could die and leave someone behind, when he knows how much that can break a person.
they both could, here. so... the opposite, wanting to grab the little things that make them happy. that's important here. ]
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[ So the fact that she can do this now, it feels... refreshing. Relieving. She really likes that feeling and sometimes she feels that she can't get enough of it. ]
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[ it's not necessarily too different to here, though but-- there's no stigma of being from a fallen wing. and it's nice that they've both made it this far, despite everything. ]
But now you're not going back to The City, so you're free to do whatever you want.
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[ She smiles at him. ]
So I'll keep doing my best with everything... and hope that it's enough.
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[ Or something. ]
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he pinches her nose (lightly) ]
Something like that.
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But... I want to be the best at doing something. To have a feeling that I could do something better than other people... I want to feel it at least once.
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[ blunt. but true. ]
You'll always find things you're not satisfied with that way.
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... Then I suppose I won't ever be satisfied with some things.
[ i slapped greed on her for a reason ]
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Just don't let it eat at you. If it consumes you too much, it can drag you down.
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[ But she just wants things sometimes. Yuri looks up to see more shooting stars. Maybe sleeping here wouldn't be so bad. ]
I told Gregor and Rodya that I had feelings for you, because I promised. Just telling other people about it... makes me realize that it's a lot more serious than I thought. I also... hope you don't mind. It feels like a big deal, even though it shouldn't be.
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Does this mean I'll be getting a shovel talk at some point?
[ the tag team that couldn't be, because teej committed crimes. ]
From what you've told me, ignoring the whole part where The City's not exactly a hotbed for feelings and emotions and all that, you've not had a lot to call yours. [ he shrugs. it doesn't bother him. talking about how you feel is tough for a lot of people -- that she was able and willing to tell gregor and rodion says a lot about her relationship with them, despite what she'll eventually tell him about them not knowing each other long. ]
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Shovel talk...?
[ Yuri takes a moment to think about this and then has a look of disbelief. ]
Shu, I'm not their child or anything...
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[ friendship, yuri… ]
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