Yes, you can take whatever you want. But you can also express however you want.
[ She's not going to let you dodge this. ]
You can react to things how ever you would like to. No one will punish you for it. I'm sure Temenos would tease, but he always does that with you, doesn't he?
... I suppose so. [she rubs at her neck a little. it's difficult to... let herself, after everything. to not feel like father is standing over her shoulder, waiting to tell her what she's done wrong this time.]
... Do you think someone will use your reaction against you?
[ Think about it, Throne.
But she did see how hurt she was by Rosamund at the end of the trial. ]
You can take it a little at a time. Hm... maybe with me to start? I'm working hard not to be so gloomy anymore, and the support I receive from others really helped. So, I want to support you too, Throne.
... Thank you. [first of all. she doesn't have a lot of people who outright say they want to support her, so it's nice to hear. makes it a little easier.]
[ Yuri's eye goes wide for a moment before gently putting a hand over Throne's after she finishes reattaching the leg. ]
... Me too, Throne. I wish... her options weren't so limited, even though she got to choose what she wanted.
And you're right. There's so much to living. Even on this ship alone, you can do so many things that can last you for a long, long time. Living is just... so much.
[ Yuri smiles a little and laces their fingers together. ]
She was the kind of person who would support you almost unconditionally. I... also found that really charming about her. Rosamund was like that for me too--easiest to become friends with. I... I don't know what was between you two during the end of the trial, but I could see that you were extremely hurt by it. Do you think... perhaps, you're up to writing a letter for her? Or did you talk that out with her after the trial? You don't have to tell what it was about, since it's none of my business. I just want you two to have some sort of reconciliation.
I'm sure that... she would prefer to be with you, Throne.
[ Among the living, but yeah, that's an obvious perk. ]
I may not know too much about you, but I can tell that you're kind because you want to be, even if you're not sure how. And that's okay. Nobody just knows how to do something instantly. Sometimes it takes time...
I will keep working at it. [she knows she's not very good at it sometimes - she knows kindness escapes her when she's stressed or focused. but it's a goal.]
... Thank you, Yuri. [a beat.] You are a steadying and gentle presence. It is nice to feel lighter after talking to you.
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she seems startled, but she takes the hug well enough. she wraps her arms around yuri tightly, hugging her back.]
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Are you okay, Throne...? It's... been a lot for you the past several days.
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... I feel a little foolish, I suppose.
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[ Let Yuri sit next to her or across from her. Whichever way, she is still facing Throne. ]
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... For reacting as strongly as I did. [local dumbass is ashamed of having feelings news at eleven]
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... Throne, I want to tell you something.
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Alright.
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... I think you should do whatever you want without feeling shame about it.
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... I normally do. I'm a thief. I often take what I want.
[but she knows that's probably not what yuri means, she's just dodging around it like a certain priest.]
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[ She's not going to let you dodge this. ]
You can react to things how ever you would like to. No one will punish you for it. I'm sure Temenos would tease, but he always does that with you, doesn't he?
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... I suppose so. [she rubs at her neck a little. it's difficult to... let herself, after everything. to not feel like father is standing over her shoulder, waiting to tell her what she's done wrong this time.]
It's... I can't let someone use it against me.
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[ Think about it, Throne.
But she did see how hurt she was by Rosamund at the end of the trial. ]
You can take it a little at a time. Hm... maybe with me to start? I'm working hard not to be so gloomy anymore, and the support I receive from others really helped. So, I want to support you too, Throne.
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... Thank you. [first of all. she doesn't have a lot of people who outright say they want to support her, so it's nice to hear. makes it a little easier.]
You remember... what you saw of my memories. Yes?
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That was one of the reasons why she wants to support Throne with this, but she keeps quiet while being attentive. ]
Yes, I do.
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... I woke up one morning and wanted to be free. I wanted to choose what I'd eat for breakfast, where I'd spend my day. I wanted to...
[she reaches for her disconnected leg, and reattaches it.]
I wanted to choose how I'd die. [...] But here, I've found that living is... there's so much to it.
And I am glad - I am glad that Rosamund got to choose. But I wish that her end hadn't been so inevitable in the first place.
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... Me too, Throne. I wish... her options weren't so limited, even though she got to choose what she wanted.
And you're right. There's so much to living. Even on this ship alone, you can do so many things that can last you for a long, long time. Living is just... so much.
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I wish that her options had been between dresses, or dances. Or who she most wanted to be with. Not this.
[silence, for a moment.]
It is... [she hesitates, and then.] Friends are difficult for me. But she was one of the people it has been easiest with.
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[ Yuri smiles a little and laces their fingers together. ]
She was the kind of person who would support you almost unconditionally. I... also found that really charming about her. Rosamund was like that for me too--easiest to become friends with. I... I don't know what was between you two during the end of the trial, but I could see that you were extremely hurt by it. Do you think... perhaps, you're up to writing a letter for her? Or did you talk that out with her after the trial? You don't have to tell what it was about, since it's none of my business. I just want you two to have some sort of reconciliation.
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I will likely write her a letter. [...] I wasn't angry. I don't... I don't think that she was either. She couldn't control it.
[but she doesn't deny that it hurt.]
They will take care of her on the other side far better than I could. So either way, it's alright.
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[ Among the living, but yeah, that's an obvious perk. ]
I may not know too much about you, but I can tell that you're kind because you want to be, even if you're not sure how. And that's okay. Nobody just knows how to do something instantly. Sometimes it takes time...
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I will keep working at it. [she knows she's not very good at it sometimes - she knows kindness escapes her when she's stressed or focused. but it's a goal.]
... Thank you, Yuri. [a beat.] You are a steadying and gentle presence. It is nice to feel lighter after talking to you.
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[ She smiles. ]
I'm not usually told that, but I'm glad that I could help you, Throne.