... I feel that my survival has merely been the luck of the draw, but... every Thursday night, I was prepared in case if I was the one who woke up while everyone else was still sleeping. I always carried an item that reduced speed, my practice sword, and my bag. I was ready to hide out in the most obscure place until the murderer was too tired to find me or if time ran out. Now, perhaps if I was the murderer...
[ She didn't have any plans for that. ]
... I probably would have fought my way in desperation. Through everyone.
Perhaps 'luck' was something reserved for those who persisted. Though, I doubt that was the only factor.
[ Being prepared for a horrid outcome could keep one from experiencing something horrible.
All the same...in a heartbeat, that creature could have chosen differently. Forced someone to kill, and it could have been either one of them. But, the fact of the matter it wasn't. ]
...I wouldn't doubt you would, whatever the circumstances of how you could have ended up being a murderer or would-be killer.
... I know that at the very least, you wouldn't care as much as the others if I murdered anyone who got in my way. At the same time, there's no way I would be able to go up against so many people at once who would want to stop me. Despite being affected by the affliction, I'd still want to live, no matter what.
[ Blade wouldn't have cared if she did murder anyone who stepped in her way. ]
...You wouldn't have tried to end your life so eagerly, like the others had, who clearly saw no other way out.
I can imagine that being very much the same, even if you would have never been able to cut a bloody path through everyone. But, that's an event that hadn't come to pass. We should be grateful for that, shouldn't we?
[ Because more people would die unnecessarily. The fact that Yuri has to think that it's "unnecessary" so actively in the forefront of her mind instead of it being such an obvious, heinous crime reminds her that The City's lawless place still has a grip on a part of her mindset. ]
But please keep in mind that I actively try not to have people mad at me.
Blade is simply grateful it hadn't because he wouldn't have wanted to see what happened should Yuri have 'died'. The executions were definitely a spectacle. ]
You're talented in ensuring others aren't furious with you.
I have no need of it, but I suppose there can be merits.
[ For people who want to...you know, not deal with attempts on their life and the like. ]
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[ She didn't have any plans for that. ]
... I probably would have fought my way in desperation. Through everyone.
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[ Being prepared for a horrid outcome could keep one from experiencing something horrible.
All the same...in a heartbeat, that creature could have chosen differently. Forced someone to kill, and it could have been either one of them. But, the fact of the matter it wasn't. ]
...I wouldn't doubt you would, whatever the circumstances of how you could have ended up being a murderer or would-be killer.
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cw: suicidal-adjacent topics jic
[ Blade wouldn't have cared if she did murder anyone who stepped in her way. ]
...You wouldn't have tried to end your life so eagerly, like the others had, who clearly saw no other way out.
I can imagine that being very much the same, even if you would have never been able to cut a bloody path through everyone. But, that's an event that hadn't come to pass. We should be grateful for that, shouldn't we?
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[ Because more people would die unnecessarily. The fact that Yuri has to think that it's "unnecessary" so actively in the forefront of her mind instead of it being such an obvious, heinous crime reminds her that The City's lawless place still has a grip on a part of her mindset. ]
But please keep in mind that I actively try not to have people mad at me.
[ her innate survival mechanisms... ]
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Blade is simply grateful it hadn't because he wouldn't have wanted to see what happened should Yuri have 'died'. The executions were definitely a spectacle. ]
You're talented in ensuring others aren't furious with you.
I have no need of it, but I suppose there can be merits.
[ For people who want to...you know, not deal with attempts on their life and the like. ]
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... If you say it as if I'm talented, that just makes me sound like a suck-up.
[ lol ]
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Though there's a pause, and then...his expression looks amused as he says: ]
Suck-ups do tend to have a higher survival rate.
[ help ]
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He's suffering.
Oh, sweet agony and pain. ]
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Why are you like this...
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There is no satisfactory answer available.
[ Blade now has been pawed. :nyeh: ]
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[ Yuri squishes the puppy onto Blade's face even more. It hugs his face. ]
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Don't you believe this has gone too far?
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[ But she will grant him mercy and pull the puppy away from his face after it licks all over it. ]
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Hmph. Took you long enough.
[ Blade wipes at his face, just a little. ]
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[ hehe. ]
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[ She will be attacked by paws and enthusiastic puppy mouths and whatnot. ]
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[ She just giggles. ]
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[ Blade cannot 'command' puppies and he knows it. Though...something else occurs to him. ]
...Perhaps it is their love for you that will be their downfall. Such simple creatures will suffocate you in their embrace.
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[ She's very anti-death but tbh? Yeah. ]
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...Let us see you say that when you have a waterfall of undignified slobber on your face.
[ Unbelievable. ]
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[ Just saying, Blade. ]
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A form of love...
Saying it like that sounds ridiculous.
[ But he has a problem, and it is that he thinks he can't quite refute that. ]
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[ 'u' ]
You're still loved.
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