And that was after how angry he got at Shouxue last week, for Sidon.
[The man has a pattern going...]
Thank you for looking out for him. I just — after seeing everything with that Myday guy, I'm wondering if he's not made a habit out of this. Attaching himself to someone, and then just letting himself become a second thought.
If I ever got attached to someone so strongly... I think I would do anything for them.
[ Yuri's voice is quiet. ]
Attachment in general was difficult back in The City. With how so many people died every day, it would be generally foolish to get attached to someone. They could die the next day and you'd never receive closure, leading you to carry that for the rest of your life.
[It's not hard to imagine. The more she peels back the gauze obscuring her world, the more she sees that frightens her. It's a pitiless place. How did it ever get to be so bad?
She can't tell whether this means it's happened before, or that Yuri fears it might. The girl carries a constant melancholy about her, and she doesn't know her well enough to pick out the differing degrees.]
I can see why you'd be afraid. Even here, it's been a struggle to keep our chins up. But...taking fire for someone else only passes that pain from you to them. Not that we should abandon people, but I think there is a difference.
There's a point beyond defending someone where it's just destructive for more than one reason.
That's part of it? [This poor girl. How many times does she have to pull herself out of disasters and find she's the only one left alive?]
I think you need to realize that you have value, Yuri. It's not wrong to try your best to survive. Sometimes that means dreadful things may happen. Things that may make you feel guilty. But deciding that you deserve to suffer or die more than someone else, that you're worth less than anyone else? I don't like the idea of that. I don't like that either of you might think that way.
You're worth more than a sacrifice. And you're worth more than your past. No matter how grim and awful it is, or how it keeps you up at night. You're a good person Yuri, you've just been put in terrible situations, one after the other.
We're all glad to have you. I know you were an outcast before, but frankly? I think those people are missing out on something great.
Edited (THIS WAS PRE EXECUTION HELP) 2024-03-29 16:41 (UTC)
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
WEEK 3: Saturday
Yuri! Hi, do you have a moment?
no subject
Yes, what's the matter?
no subject
Well, it's Nodd. I'm worried about him.
no subject
[ Yuri sighs. ]
I used my portable medkit on him shortly after the trial and let him go. I, of all people, can't judge him for his actions.
no subject
[The man has a pattern going...]
Thank you for looking out for him. I just — after seeing everything with that Myday guy, I'm wondering if he's not made a habit out of this. Attaching himself to someone, and then just letting himself become a second thought.
no subject
[ But Yuri makes a lopsided smile. ]
... I can't blame him though. Our situations are really different, but I understand.
no subject
Which part?
no subject
[ Yuri's voice is quiet. ]
Attachment in general was difficult back in The City. With how so many people died every day, it would be generally foolish to get attached to someone. They could die the next day and you'd never receive closure, leading you to carry that for the rest of your life.
no subject
She can't tell whether this means it's happened before, or that Yuri fears it might. The girl carries a constant melancholy about her, and she doesn't know her well enough to pick out the differing degrees.]
I can see why you'd be afraid. Even here, it's been a struggle to keep our chins up. But...taking fire for someone else only passes that pain from you to them. Not that we should abandon people, but I think there is a difference.
There's a point beyond defending someone where it's just destructive for more than one reason.
no subject
[ Ohhh, yeah. She absolutely understands that feeling. ]
no subject
I think you need to realize that you have value, Yuri. It's not wrong to try your best to survive. Sometimes that means dreadful things may happen. Things that may make you feel guilty. But deciding that you deserve to suffer or die more than someone else, that you're worth less than anyone else? I don't like the idea of that. I don't like that either of you might think that way.
You're worth more than a sacrifice. And you're worth more than your past. No matter how grim and awful it is, or how it keeps you up at night. You're a good person Yuri, you've just been put in terrible situations, one after the other.
We're all glad to have you. I know you were an outcast before, but frankly? I think those people are missing out on something great.
no subject
[ Yuri bites her lower lip as it quivers, casting her gaze onto the ground. She wasn't going to, but she ends up crying a little. ]
Rosamund... Thank you.