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... I hope so too. If permitted, I would like to spend time with her again without a wall between us.

[ Her shoulders droop. ]

I enjoyed her company a lot. She even stood up for me and... I was happy that someone would do that for me.

[ Like in today's trial with Rodya. ]

[ a good girl, and we gave her death. ]

We can't really say what's going to happen until tomorrow's over. But I hope you get to talk to her again, without that wall.

[ Yuri nods and quietly breathes out. She will still prepare for the worst as she has always been. ]

The trial... was such a mess.

[ at this point, it's the smart thing to do. even if you hope for better. ]

Nine hours, double the investigating. Kinda hope we don't have to do that again. [ ... ] At all, would be better, but if we can't have that I'd rather it didn't get doubled up.

I feel the same.

[ ... ]

Being on the suspect list doesn't really feel as bad as seeing other people on the list.

[ She looks at Shu, since he was also on a narrowed suspect list last week. ]

I suppose it's partly due to knowing that I was innocent, but seeing people I care about on the list made me feel more anxious.

[ i like how i was on the suspect list in a week i wasn't there, damn i could've played that up ]

It is what it is.

Unless we're spiralling and running out of time, you'll have nothing to hide. Ultimately, we're looking for answers and the truth, but there's a saying about the truth hurting.

[ you could have destroyed yuri more ]

The truth only hurts when we want to deny it.

[ She shakily breathes out. ]

... Is that from experience, Shu?

[ luckily for everyone, i was absent last week lmao. yaywon yelling at me like aaa you weren't there. ]

A lot of people do, because of the whole confronting thing. [ he looks thoughtful. ] The truth is complicated sometimes. It's easier to focus on a lie sometimes, even if you know the truth is something different.

[ Yuri is quiet as she seems to contemplate on something. ]

How do you deal with it?

[ ha. ]

Poorly, apparently.

Really? You seem like you have yourself handled all the time... I was wondering if that was from plenty of experience.

[ Shu? Freaking out? Hasn't crossed her mind apparently. ]

That's maybe more of an attitude adjustment, but... a few years ago I didn't cope with something very well. Took me a while to realise I was wrong, but I lose a lot by admitting that.

[ he shrugs. ]

So I don't. Not yet at least.

Oh.

[ ... ]

Even so, you're very calm about admitting that already... I wish I could have that degree of control.

[ he tilts his head. ]

It's not so hard to talk around things.

[ :pensive:

Yuri thinks that Shu tilting his head like that is a little cute. ]

As opposed to directly talking about things?

[ shakes this kind of character i play around like a maraca

help ... his little head tilts. ]

Direct is fine sometimes. When there's no point in keeping it quiet.